Need Me Some Happy Endorphins!

Day 13 (February 16, 2019)

Hey Lord,

            Seein’ as how you created me, I figure you won’t be squeamish if we talk about the “P” word. (You know, the word most guys avoid like the plague.) Can we talk about my period? I won’t get graphic. It is just that I can feel my body ramping up to start and it always scares me. My anxiety quadruples during my period and, often times, it is absolutely debilitating. It raises my OCD to extreme levels and that can lead to out of control pulling episodes. That is why I need me some happy endorphins, Lord, so that I can counteract the possible chemical imbalances in my brain and keep the pulling urges at bay.

            So, in an effort to do this, I went in search of a new workout video. Since I already had one geared towards my legs, I decided to search for one that focused on strengthening, and toning, my arm muscles. And, to my surprise, the video I chose ended up having multiple exercises that required me to either lie on my back or kneel on the ground. Honestly, this was kind of perfect because Dane recently bought me a purple yoga mat and it was well past time to bust that thing out of its plastic covering.

            I ended up rolling it out right in front of the front door because, well, there isn’t many other spots the mat will fit, Lord. (Like I have mentioned before, we have way too much space in this grand 500 square foot condo.) I followed along with the workout video and found out quickly that I liked the man in this video way more than the woman in the other video. (Haha, not for the reason you might think. He didn’t try to kill me!) I did a bunch of reps with my little 5lb dumbbells, but I think I will need to come up with a rep goal to meet and then surpass, as I go on, because doing reps by a timer just doesn’t seem as effective. Besides that, though, it felt great to be active and get that “feel good burn” going.

            I really want this “feel good burn” to help combat any possible miss firings in my brain, Lord. My goal is to alternate the workout videos and hopefully do them so regularly that they just become habit. That might be hard during my period since my cramps are always (and I mean always!) excruciatingly brutal. The thing is, Lord, it is during those cramps when my inner world seems to crash down around me. It is during the pain that my anxiety shoots through the roof, and I need the happy endorphins the most. So, I need your help. I need you to help me manage the pain my cramps produce, so that I may feel well enough to do some sort of workout routine that will produce those vital happy endorphins which in turn will help manage my anxiety and hair pulling. Lord, I am putting out an effort in this area. Will you please bless my efforts, and help me fight back against my OCD and Trichotillomania?? Please.

Always,

Your Daughter Kaitlan

P.S. Lord, please don’t forget the other women whose anxiety quadruples during their periods too. Help them manage their pain, so that they can participate in an activity that produces happy endorphins which in turn will help them fight their OCD and Trichotillomania. Oh, and let us not forget the men in our lives. Their bodies experience pain as well, and just like many of us women, I’m positive the pain makes their anxiety spike too. So, Lord, I also ask that you help the men, out there, manage their specific types of pain, that way they can participate in an active pastime that counteracts the OCD and Trichotillomania, they may be experiencing as well, with the same type of happy endorphins us ladies are striving for. Thank you! (Happy Endorphins for all!!)

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